Tuesday 12 July 2016

Andrei Platonov: Soul



Inside every poor creature was a sense of some other happy destiny, a destiny that was necessary and inevitable -why, then, did they find their lives such a burden and why were they always waiting for something?


Everything in the existing world seemed strange to him; it was as if the world had been created for some brief, mocking game. But this game of make-believe had dragged on for a long time,for eternity, and nobody felt like laughing anymore.

Tuesday 5 July 2016

Tor Ulven: Replacement


Man, you wish you had wrinkles. You want to be as old as possible.


It’s not the thought of death. No, that’s not the reason you ache in the springtime, like the chill you get by drinking water after you’ve sucked on a cough drop, although its not really an ache either, but a sorrow, a stab of worry, over what?, you wonder, and continue: over life unlived; not anger or angst about the fact that in the near future you won’t be experiencing anything at all (your fear of death actually decreases as you get older), but the nagging feeling that you haven’t experienced enough, that you’ve never really lived life, and even worse, that it’s too late to experience anything more, or rather, that the experiences you’ve had weren’t the experiences you were meant to have , that somewhere along the way you took a wrong turn, though you can’t say where exactly that was, and now it’s too late, and as a result your life has in one sense been wasted, like a losing game of blind man’s bluff.


The men who are starting their workday or continuing their workday even before the day’s really begun, down there in the scorching heat and metal fumes, you imagine them sweating, toiling away, protecting their eyes with glasses, their heads with helmets, their hands with asbestos gloves, their feet with steel-toed boots, their lungs with dust absorbent cloths, down there in blue-collar hell, clueless idiots tortured body and soul for every red cent, and the worst of it, you think, is that they can’t imagine doing anything else, they can’t even fantasize about living a life without work, they’d never accept a check for sitting on their asses…


What you’ve got to understand is that meaning can be found in meaninglessness, and that these meaningless words hold all that you need to know.